Ever been in a situation where you introduce Friend A to Friend B, and sooner or later the both of them are having conversations with each other without you? It pretty much sucks. When you were the one who introduced them to each other and later, Friend A usually would related some irreverent comment back to Friend B. I mean really. Are you serious. Yes I guess you can say I may like Friend B and is jealous when they mention Friend A to me. But I want to keep my friendship with Friend A, but how can I when Friend B is talking to them instead of talking to me? God Dammit, Why the Hell did I introduced them to each other. Sure they have the same lunch together with a few of my other friends, but why the hell is Friend B calling it a "bonding time" during lunch, when they were my friends first. I mean sure I introduced you to them, but its like Friend B is barely talking to me now. Why the Hell.
And yes, I am jealous of Friend A, for more than 1 reason. This is because this happens to me A LOT, I would introduce two of my friends to each other and sooner or later I am out of their conversations. So I am back to being alone. Fine by me, I am used to being alone, but why am I jealous of my friend when I don't want to be.
Its almost the end of the school year, and I would not like to see my "other side" get the better of me, although it already has. I would not like to break whatever friendship I have with Friend A and Friend B, but it is just so hard when all this bottled up anger and sadness inside me is about to break. What the hell should I do?
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