It's already too late for this. Final letter

First of all, I sincerely want to apologize to you. What I wrote in that letter I admit it was pure attention seeking. I realized that the feelings I poured into that letter were the memories I had when you did give me a lot of attention. I was stuck in the past and couldn't face reality. It's not something I should have written but it was written and you read it. You probably won't accept my apology and that fine, I kinda figured you would hate me after reading something which was made up of my selfish self. I want to be able to write one final letter though. I will try my absolute best to not put any attention seeking into it.

Dear -------,

You are a great guy you know. Yes, you are blunt sometimes but being blunt doesn't always have to be a bad thing. It gets people to realize their mistakes and they can change themselves for the better. You are also very hardworking as well, you would always clean up the music room after school by yourself even if the teacher said that the class should help ( which they didn't at all). Even though it took time you made sure that everything was put back in order for the next day. The music teachers are really lucky that there is someone as hard working as you in the music program and they are glad you signed up for both music courses as well for next year. Library wise, you are helpful for the library, even though your shift are done and someone else is there, you would still stick around and help out in anything that needs to be done around the library. Last would be anime club? You sure watched a lot of animes that is for sure. I wish you the very best in grade 12 and again I am truly sorry that you read that horrible ridiculous 1st letter I wrote to you. I should have never decided to give you that is the first place but I did and I am sorry that you had to read that part of my mind. Getting to know you has helped me realize just how attention seeking I can really get and that is something that I need to change. As I mentioned to a friend that is suppose to pass along the message. You will hopefully never hear from me again, you won't hear my annoying cat noise, nor will you ever see my attention seeking self again.  I know this letter is probably too late but like I said many times. I am sincerely sorry and I will be forever sorry that you got involved in my selfish self.


Sincerely,
Jessica Lui